The break up; my achy heart

I'm still twenty and I'm no longer in a relationship. Barely a month after I started dating this awesome guy, I got dumped. Since this is the first time in my life this is happening to me, I feel so horrible. I always do the dumping, now i'm being dumped. No, this is not about my ego, this is about the pain i feel about loosing someone i love. It sucks and it hurts. it's like forcefully removing two gummed piece of cotton and not minding the damage, wool flying all around and oh the mess! I literally hold my chest sometimes to make sure my heart isn't falling out. The shock to realize that suddenly he is no more part of your life, the things you wanna tell him then hang up when you remember you can't call him and the anger you feel towards him for not realizing all these and not giving you a benefit of the doubt. I've gone over and over in my mind and read over and over the chats that lead to the break up and the more i read, the more my heart breaks. He says we have different beliefs (I'm feminist, I believe in equality for everybody and I have a very shaky relationship with God-if any) and so it will be a problem in the future; if we can't have the future, then we can't have now. How come everybody gets his point but not me? And maybe they are right and he is doing both of us a huge favor but there is nothing favorable about how I feel. Somehow and sometime soon I hope to come to terms with dealing without him and going back to my default settings but now I'm allowed to mourn the absence of my friend and love, his laughter, his teasing and the daily chats.